Spiritual Awakening

When ‘One Day’ becomes TODAY

I recently went on a holiday to Peru. It was a hiking holiday up the Quarry Trail, 4,400m above sea level, up mountains so steep I was walking doubled over for most of it, even with hiking poles, and so beautiful I literally cried. Literally.

The ‘secret’ waterfall where I shed my first tears.

I am only slightly exaggerating when I say it nearly killed me, and if it wasn’t for the horse, it may well have. I have never done anything so challenging in my entire life. Or as liberating.


You see, I travelled alone. Sure, I met a tour group when I got there, but most of the travelling I did on my own. I arrived a few days early to give myself time to acclimatize and I did this alone. I wandered the streets of Cuzco, alone. I got myself out of a situation I was not comfortable with, alone. I survived, alone.

The summit…


You see, I was one of those ‘One Day’ people. One of those ‘When I meet someone’ people with no confidence to do things without a safety blanket. I have recently come to realize that I am in fact that someone and ‘one day’ is TODAY. No more waiting around for Mr. or Mrs. Right (because a travelling companion can be either). No more ‘One day I will…’ statements. I am not getting any younger, as people always say, and NOW is the time to do what I want to do. For me. With me. Because in the end, all you really have is yourself, your experiences and your memories.

…and back down.



I also quickly realized that I had completely underprepared for the trek. I had done heaps of walking and riding to get myself fit and increase my endurance, because I thought that stamina would be the key here. I was totally wrong. I felt I had not done nearly enough up-hill walking, and absolutely none at any real altitude. And rightly so, where in Australia can you hike at the altitudes necessary to prepare for such a hike? The hardest part was getting a full breath, while it felt like a small child was using my chest as a bed. I very nearly turned back after the first day.

After waking up on the third day with very little muscle pain, I soon realized that I was way stronger in my body that I thought I was. I had yet again underestimated myself. 18 months of pole dancing and the bike riding had made my leg muscles stronger than I could ever have imagined and that it was quite possible I was in better physical condition than I gave myself credit for. It could be this or the constant Reiki I had programmed to receive, I’m not totally sure. Either way, for the first time in my life I realized that I am totally capable of doing something like this and it felt great!

My point is, at some point you have to act on your desires and stop waiting for your life to start. It has already started, it is happening even as you read this. One Day will never come, because it is like tomorrow – it doesn’t really exist. All we have is this moment and what we are doing in this moment, whether it be for our current happiness or for our future happiness, the only time that exists is NOW.

My other point is to not underestimate your abilities. Push yourself just a little bit further and have the courage to admit when you’re done (as I had to on part of the second day where I rode the horse to catch up to the rest of the group) and ask for help. But first, you have to have the courage to at least try.

Personal growth, getting out of your comfort zone and challenges are hard, but totally worth it in the end.

I now know that I can do whatever I put my mind to and that I don’t need anyone to do it with me. Sure, it would be nice, but company is no longer a prerequisite I have set for myself. I also now know that I have no idea what I am really capable of and I have the courage to see exactly what my limits are. I know what I want my future to look like and I am now taking steps to bring that about – including an epic trip to Europe in 2018. I can travel alone. I can hike up mountains. I can look after myself in a country where they don’t speak English. I can…

Now, the possibilities are endless……


When did text break ups become a thing?

When did text break ups become a thing? Did we lose all our courage, compassion and resilience when they invented mobile texting?

It’s a disgrace that a person can end a 12 year relationship over text and never actually have a conversation. This actually happened to a friend’s daughter very recently. They have 3 boys together, a home and over a decade of family life and it all comes down to a 75c text… Not even that if you’re on an unlimited plan like I am.

Is this what the world is coming to, people hiding behind a screen? People typing what they would never say to a person’s face on social media and what they really should say over text? When did the rules of common decency and compassion disappear?

I wont even say he should ‘man up’ – He should ‘adult up’. we should all ‘adult up’ and take responsibility for our actions in a compassionate way.

We should bring back Grandma’s sayings from childhood: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.

Not a single person I know would welcome a break up text. So, DON’T DO IT!


This just seem like basic human decency to me.

I’m sure there are exceptions to the rule, as there always are. But, if you’ve slept together, more than a text should be required. Or if you have a drawer at their house. Or if you’ve met the parents. Or if you have children. Or if you have exchanged vows or made plans to do so.

It seems obvious to me if you’ve shared more than saliva, it’s at least semi-serious and the option for a text break up is long past. Especially if you’ve mingled DNA to create an entirely new human.

Am I alone here? Am I one of the few that would never send a break up text?

Please, if you’re out there let me know and restore some of my faith in humanity.

Have you been on the receiving end of a break up text? Please, share your story so people can read it and hopefully understand what it is like to receive one. Hopefully we can illuminate this practice and it’ll burn away like a vampire in the sun and bring back compassion.

It’s time to ‘adult up’, be accountable for our decisions and face life with compassion and integrity. Let’s get our big girl and big boy pants on and do the right thing. For the sake of humanity and the future of decency.

Spiritual Awakening

Manifestation Magic

I’ve been manifesting like a magician lately.

I’ll think ‘I wouldn’t mind X’ and then within 2 weeks, I’ve got it. It has mostly been superficial stuff, like earrings or sandals, but it’s working so quickly these days. Sometimes even with 48 hours.

The key is that I’m surrendering. I’m asking and then allowing Spirit to send it to me, or guide me to it, whichever the case may be. I’m releasing expectation or attachment to the outcome and quite literally people are offering me the things I’ve been asking for. I have to pay for them, but in my world everything requires an energy exchange of some sort.

So, this part is fantastic! Plus the part where I’m releasing expectations and attachments – finally surrendering – feels amazing!

But, like most things in this world, there’s a dark side to manifesting. Insert appropriate Yin and Yang reference here.

What most of us don’t realize, including myself up until very recently, is that we often manifest the bad too. Since manifestation comes from thought energy, we are quite literally creating our thoughts in the physical.

A friend of mine recently spoke to me about this. She felt she had manifested her house getting robbed. After checking with her that her thoughts were not in fact ‘Spirit nudges’ telling her to beware, it would appear she did. She put so much energy into the thought it opened up her energy for it.

I have to stress here there is no blame or judgement, only understanding. Now she (in fact we) is fully aware of her power, she can channel it into positive things.

I myself am responsible for my own dark manifestations, though mine are more emotional than physical. If I look back over past friendships and relationships, I realize I have manifested certain emotional reactions or outcomes based on expectations within myself. My thoughts have literally created my reality. They’ll always hurt or betray you. You’re not good enough for them and they don’t like you anyway. I then behave in a certain way, unconscious as it is, that the expected outcome manifests. They leave. They hurt or betray me. They stop talking to me or I lose their respect in some way.

I’m not saying these people don’t have their own role in outcomes or that I’m God and can make people act a certain way, but my own expectations influence events as they unfold. Maybe if I looked back some of these statements could be changed ‘they’ to ‘I’. Certainly in the romantic relationships it works – I leave. I stop talking to them or they lose my respect. I hurt or betray them. This last one is hard to accept as I never thought I would ever, but now is the time to be honest with myself and I can’t honestly say it’s impossible.

So, while we are manifesting our dream job, or favourite car, or even our soul mate, what else are we manifesting? What other thoughts are we giving our power to that is creating our circumstances? If we can manifest the good with our thoughts, it stands to reason that we can also manifest the bad.

Our powers of manifestation aren’t reserved for the positive circumstances. in a world of duality, we need to be aware of the dark.