Spirituality

Manifestation Magic: Part 2

This is an extension of my thoughts from Part 1, although not titled as such. I always knew there would be more. Considering what I am currently learning about manifestation, there will probably be a part 3!

In my previous post I spoke about the negative impacts of manifestation and how they can impact our lives just as much (if not more than) the positive. I am also happy to say that I am still manifesting like a magician, sometimes within 30 minutes. A short anecdote to this effect.

I was recently on a trip through Cambodia. I was with a tour group and totally excited to meet everyone. While getting ready for the meet-n-greet I had a thought – “I wish I had brought one of my smaller shoulder bags, just to carry my personals in. This backpack is going to get tiresome pretty quick! Oh well, I’m not buying another one so I’ll have to make do.” Then BAM! At the meet-n-greet the tour guide gives us all shoulder bags made by locals with traditional tartans on them! So amazing.

Ok, so now onto the deeper stuff… although that story perfectly illustrates my main point for this post. Synchronicity!!

I have recently come to the realisation that there are also another two sides to manifestation. Not only is there the positive/negative aspect of manifesting, but there is the giving/receiving aspect.

I’ll explain.

When we ask for something, say a shoulder bag, a new lounge or a new job, something has to happen. Things just don’t fall out of the sky. Someone has to actually give you these things.

My tour guide had to actually organise for the bags to be made and then bring them to the meeting. Someone had to say ‘I know someone who has a lounge they want to get rid of!’ Someone has to actually offer you the job, and maybe even lose theirs to make way for you!

An exchange takes place in all instances.

This then naturally flows into our own part in manifestation. Sometimes we have to give something to someone else. If we don’t do the giving, then manifestation doesn’t happen as quickly, if at all!

Another anecdote: one day I was walking home from the shops, grocery bag full of a few essential items. I can’t remember what exactly, but bread rolls was part of it. Maybe I was making burgers or something. Anyway, I came across a man who I assumed to be homeless. I had the strong urge to give him a couple of my bread rolls. I had 6, and only 4 patties (yes, I was making burgers, I remember now!) so I could in reality spare 2. However, I argued with myself over this urge – what if he isn’t actually homeless? What if I insult him with the offer? How can I assume anything? – and didn’t give the man the rolls. It would have been easily done, ‘hey mate, how are you? Are you hungry? Here have some rolls!’ Or conversely, ‘oh, you’re not homeless? I apologise, but I got this urge to give you some rolls. Would you like some anyway?’ The only thing that would have been hurt was my ego, which is probably why my ego talked me out of it.

In this scenario, to get us back to my part in manifestation, what if that man had asked the universe for some rolls? Or maybe food in general? What if my urge to give him the rolls was manifestation at work and I rationalised my way out of it? What if I was the person who was supposed to give him the rolls like the tour guide gave me the bag?

My point here is, that in manifestation there is always a giver and a receiver. Things don’t just fall out of think air, they don’t just appear. Someone always has to give you something or do something in order for manifestation to work – something I remember vaguely about the law of opposites or polarity or some such…

 

So, the next time you get an urge to do something for someone or give them something, just know this may be your part in the manifestation process and do it! I know I will! 😀

Spirituality

How I will stop moaning and start doing

I’ve just been watching a clip by Lee Harris, his April energy update, and in it he says that we need to stop moaning about the wrongs in this world and start finding solutions.

Ok, it wasn’t quite that blunt, but I have the right to paraphrase! This is what I took from it anyway.

So, what am I angry about this month? What am I moaning about this month?

That people don’t want to take responsibility for their pain, but rather blame others.

This one is a hard one because there isn’t much I can actually do. You can lead a horse to water, as the old saying goes. But, I can refuse to accept responsibility and remove myself from the situation. If I stop allowing myself to be someone’s scapegoat, then perhaps this will lead them on an inner journey of self discovery and healing when they no longer have anyone around to blame. Or, they’ll find someone else. Either way, what happens after isn’t my responsibility either.

My other option could be to start a healing business. I am a Reiki Master after all, and I have done a lot of work on myself so I have a lot of strategies that can help. But again, the horse analogy comes into play. On the other hand, if I build it, they will come, right?

That I am not living my purpose

This is a tricky one, because I’m not entirely sure what my purpose is. I know what I am passionate about – helping people move past their patterns and programs and becoming the best version of themselves – I am just not clear on the best way to do this. Is it through tarot and Numerology? Is it through energy healings? Is it through Mediumship? All of these things have helped me, as well as kinesiology, meditation, yoga and journaling, but I’m not qualified to offer advice on most of these.

So, I guess my only plan at the moment should be creating a plan. What can I do to help people? How can I best serve humanity? What are my strengths and how can I use them for my purpose? This one will take some further contemplation.

That people still haven’t realised how bad animal agriculture is for our health, the animals and the planet.

This is where activism comes in. I will write a post about this later, but I’m not sure my role is standing up holding banners outside of circuses or rodeos. I’m just too sensitive to energies for that kind of activity. My strengths are organisation and practical assistance, so perhaps my role is to help people organise protests, get permissions and check legal requirements, create banners for them and to organise people once they are there? Maybe it is simply to volunteer at festivals and fairs like the Alive festival? Maybe it is having conversations with people, planting the seed and leading them to documentaries and information about what is really going on? This way they will come to their own conclusions and make the decision themselves. It’s a kind of quiet activism, non-confrontational, yet just as powerful.

That people still think being a feminist is a bad thing

Luckily for me, a lot of this information has come in conversations with students at school. One student said that how feminists are getting their point across is abrasive and turning ordinary men against them. My response was that until you had experienced what women have experienced, you don’t really have a say in how they should respond. Not sure if he understood what I was trying to say, but I hope he at least came away with a better understanding of what the feminist movement is all about. Even yesterday, students were talking about feminism. It seems it is on the rise, but not in a good way. Perhaps my ‘planting the seed’ idea could work here too? Give them a different opinion and some resources and let them on their merry way. I can’t force people to see things from a different perspective, but I can give them another one and hope they open their minds.

So, it seems there is quite a bit I could be moaning about this month. There is probably a lot more too, I just haven’t sat with it long enough.

I do know this, nothing changes if you continue to do the same thing. In order to change your life you must first change your actions. So, here’s to change! Looks like there’s quite a bit coming for me.

What are you moaning about this month? What are some ways you could solve this problem?

Spiritual Awakening

How I Learned to Love Myself

For many of us, love is easy to give. We love our parents, our friends, our children, our cat, our neighbour etc, etc.

We give our love away freely, and often to people who don’t deserve it. We give it to people who use and abuse it, betraying our trust. A lot of the time we continue to give it to these people even after they have broken our hearts.

We often find it hard to love the one person who matters most in our world. Ourselves.

We ignore our own desires, our needs, our wants. We betray ourselves by doing the things we say we won’t do anymore, be it food or lending something to an unappreciative sibling. We don’t do the things we know we should, like say no or exercise.

We don’t honour and love ourselves, because society teaches us it is wrong to love ourselves. If we get a shred of self-esteem we are told not to be ‘up yourself’ or ‘full of yourself’.

We don’t know ourselves, because society tells us that being alone is wrong, that there is something wrong with people who would rather be on their own. That you have to be popular and spend heaps of time with people to be happy.

I personally struggled with self love. Every time I looked in the mirror I hated what I saw, wishing I was different. Wishing I had this face, or this body, or this hair. I didn’t even like who I was as a person.

Then my awakening journey lead me along the path of self-discovery and I realised a lot of things about myself. I didn’t love myself, because I didn’t know myself. I had spent the last 2 decades trying to fit in with everyone else and to be like everyone else that I no longer knew me.

I also discovered the truth in the saying ‘to love another, you must first love yourself.’ I realised I had never truly, deeply loved my boyfriends, my friends, even my own family. This may in part be because I’m an empath, and we feel emotions way more intensely (an idea I can verify through personal experience), often leading us to shut our emotions down, but I don’t think it’s the whole reason. I didn’t know how to love, because I didn’t love myself.

So, as I followed this path of self-discovery I found a few ways that helped me to build a relationship with myself and learn to love myself:

  • Learned my love language and practised it on myself: mine is quality time and affection. So, I started spending ‘quality time’ with myself. This included writing, reading, watching TV, exercise. I mustered the courage to take myself out on a movie date and a lunch date, which eventually lead me to taking myself on a holiday! This quality time allowed me to get to know myself as I would another person and I gradually began to love the person I was. So, find your love language and start practising it on yourself.
Me, on my solo holiday to Byron Bay.
  • Practised Self-love: this is about learning to love the physical you, as well as the emotional. Many of us will say ‘I love my personality’ or ‘I love my intelligence’, but few of us can say ‘I love my body’. I have found this is because we don’t know our bodies. We haven’t explored them the way a lover would. We have to learn to make love to ourselves. This the main idea I took from an amazing book, Unleashing the Sex Goddess in Every Woman, by Olivia St. Clair. Along with advice about how to unlock your special potential in the bedroom, she says that one of the best ways to understand what you like, is to find out for yourself with yourself. I discovered that the more I made love to myself, the more love I felt for myself. So, the next time the urge takes you, don’t see it as a means to an end. Rather, explore yourself, your body, be present with you and make love to you.
  • Exercise: this is how I learned what my body was capable of and to appreciate what it could do. I never thought it would take me the 20k round trip from my house to the beach, let alone on a 3 day hike up the Andes!! But it did both of these things, and more. Now, I practice yoga and ride my bicycle often, not only because it makes me happy, but when I get up that hill, I can appreciate myself and love my body more. I also practice yoga with intention: my personal mantra is ‘strong body, strong mind, strong heart’. I am definitely learning how strong my body is, and how strong my heart is. So, find what you love doing and do it! Have the intention of it building the relationship with your body and your self and it will.

Doing yoga on the Andes. Well, maybe just a few poses for the camera! I had just hiked for a day and a half and there wasn’t much left.
  • Energetic hygiene: as I said before, I am an empath and part of the reason I didn’t know myself was because I had so many other people’s emotions and ideas floating around inside of myself. So, if I was going to sponge other people’s emotions, they better be good ones, right? I made a decision to surround myself with people who uplifted me rather than pulled me down. This was often hard, because I truly did enjoy the company of these people. The day finally came when I had to call it. As usual, I had hung on for way too long, but I had to learn the lesson to be ruthless with my own well-being in this way. I now love myself enough to be ruthless with what I put inside of my body, both physically and energetically.
  • Practise integrity, especially with yourself: you have to be honest with yourself first, and then with others. This second one is hard, because I never want to hurt people’s feelings, but I’ve decided that my feelings are more important and, as long as I’ve delivered what I need to with tact, how they react is their issue. I need to be who I want to be in all areas. When you practice integrity, you start to be the person you want to be and this fosters personal love. I am not sure how it works, but it did for me. Don’t just talk the talk, walk the walk. Remove that mask and practice what you preach.
  • Stop comparing yourself to others: this one sounds pretty obvious, but I found this one quite difficult to do. We are constantly bombarded with advertising that shows us who we could be if we had something we don’t already have. The truth is, we already have what we need, the rest is aesthetics. I had to stop comparing my life and myself to others, because it was making me depressed. Why didn’t I have the husband and the kids and the fancy house and car and holiday home? Why was I single in my 30s, still renting, with a car that is almost as old as my youngest sibling? The truth is, this is my life. I have made decisions based on what matters most to me. Other people have done the exact same, it just so happens that our core values are different, nothing more. I accept responsibility for where I am now, and not in a bad way because I am very blessed with a lot of freedom and independence. I learned to appreciate what my life is, and learned to love myself in the process.
Love this little flier! ❤ 

This is by no means an exhaustive list of ways you can love yourself more. It is merely what I did, and still do on a daily basis. As usual, take on what feels right for you and leave the rest. If one of these strategies helps you to find self-love, then I am happy.

Just remember, it is an ongoing process. We will be faced with challenges along the way (as I have very recently), but we need to remember to come back to ourselves and spend time alone to reconnect with us for it to have any lasting effect. We need to remember to keep practising those things that made us fall in love with ourselves in the first place. Like any relationship, it doesn’t just develop on its own, you have to put something into it. That being said, the relationship you have with yourself will be the one that never ends. 💖😇🕉

Spiritual Awakening

Understanding me as an Empath

This road of self-discovery has been hard and interesting, heart breaking and illuminating. I have lost and I have gained.

The hardest lesson to learn, the most difficult aspect of myself to assimilate has been me as an Empath.

I understand that I am highly sensitive and take on the emotions of others. I actually feel their anger like a hammer to the chest.

I also feel their happiness and excitement to the point I get jittery and lightheaded. This is probably the more pleasant experiences I’ve had, waiting in line at Wet ‘n Wild and feeling all the excitement and happiness surround me. I totally had to work on my base chakra to keep grounded that day!

The anger and frustration are not as pleasant, obviously. And working among emotionally volatile teenagers who rarely want to do what you are asking them to, makes it even harder!

Another perfect example happened the other day.

It was last period on a Friday and it was fairly warm. Ok, most everyone else was whinging about how hot it was, but I lived in Far North Queensland for five years, so I have a high tolerance for heat. If my knee caps aren’t sweating, it’s not hot! (Yes, you can actually sweat out of your knee caps… it’s not pleasant, but interesting the first time it happens. But, I digress.)

One student randomly got up and headed for the door with a can of body spray in her hand. I asked her where she was going and she informed me that she was going to put some body spray on. I say informed, because this is one student who doesn’t ask, which also infuriated me, but for different reasons.

Now, schools usually have a strict policy against aerosols due to the fact they can trigger asthma attacks in people, and seeing as I come from a long line of asthmatics, I am particularly pedantic about this rule. So, I asked her to worry about it after class and come back inside, but she flat out ignored me.

Well, I felt sudden, red hot anger surge inside of me. And I mean that literally. I had been feeling great all day, having a good day and dealing with similar issues calmly and respectfully.

I took a breath, went out to deal with it the best I could with this anger bubbling up inside and came back inside.

I spent the next hour or so, including the drive home, breathing the anger out and trying to figure out what had triggered me. I thought I had dealt with my issues around not being respected as a reflection of the respect I don’t show myself, so I was loathe to go back here. Besides, it didn’t feel right.

I had felt ok all day, even during that period when other students weren’t doing what I had asked, I stayed calm and took it for what it was.

But this student totally rocked me.

Then it finally hit me. I was sitting quietly when it did too, not trying to work it out, as it often does.

The anger, it wasn’t mine, it was hers. She felt angry at being asked not to do something she had determined to do and I felt it. Did she project it to me? Most likely, as I could be seen as the source of her anger, but I know it wasn’t a conscious thing. She is about as self-aware as a rock.

This was yet another example of me accepting another’s emotions as my own. There was no need to search for the trigger in me, it was her anger I was feeling.

Now, I won’t say that there is no chance of it being my own issues with respect, because they have been there, but as soon as I realised the possibility that I was carrying her emotion I calmed immediately. I was able to disconnect and go about my weekend (which is good for me, because the old me would have carried that for days and ruined my weekend!)

I think this happens a lot for me. I am in a situation and an emotion is hurled and I react, then try and figure out why I felt that way, what is being triggered, what pattern am I working from. The truth is none, because the emotions aren’t mine.

I am now making a commitment to being more self-aware and present at each moment. I am hoping that by doing this, I can be aware when I am feeling the emotions of another person and save myself the hours of analysing! I can just call it theirs and move on, back into the peace I have now found for myself.

I’ll keep you posted. 😁

Spiritual Awakening

Overcoming Victimhood

This personal growth thing is hard. We have to admit so much about ourselves that we don’t like. Oftentimes, when we do admit it, there is little we can do about it at that time. We have to sit by and watch as we continue to follow the programs and patterns, but fully conscious. It’s like that Stephen King story Autopsy Room Four, we’re undergoing an autopsy, completely aware and powerless to stop it.

Recently I had to admit a hard truth to myself. I played the victim.

Whenever something went wrong in my life my first thought would be ‘why are you doing this to me?’ No one was exempt from this, not even Spirit.

‘Why is this happening to me?’ ‘Why can’t I just get what I want?’ And to Spirit: ‘Why, if you’re oh-so-powerful, can’t you just give me what I want?’

It took me weeks of lower back pain for me to admit that I was playing the victim. I kept reading the lower back entry in Inna Segal’s book, but nothing resonated. Not of course until I was ready to admit it.

The next few weeks was the period Victor Oddo talks about where you are aware of what you are doing, but have no idea how to stop it. I can’t remember which clip it was now, as I’ve seen so many and taken notes for so few. I just remember him talking about the part of the awakening process where you are aware of your patterns, but unable to do anything about them. His loosely paraphrased advice was to just let them be. You are aware, which is more than most can say.

So, I let it be, which was probably the best thing I could ever have done. I had no idea how to break the victimhood mentality, and nothing I read came close to telling me what to do about it. So, I did nothing and remained aware of my thoughts and actions that aligned with this victim program.

Then the revelation came. Two events this year that told me that I had released the program and moved into unchartered territory. It still feels odd to me that I reacted to these situations in this way, but I know that’s my ego still trying to get traction.

The first was the first week of January. I had arrived at Krishna Village Yoga Retreat in Northern NSW, set up my tent and gone about my day, doing yoga, kirtan and their workshops. During one of the workshops it began to rain. I didn’t experience anything more than mild concern. Surely the tent was waterproof. Besides, I had set it up as I normally do, so it should be fine.

Well, it wasn’t. I got back to a partly soaked mattress and puddles on the floor.

I quickly realised I had not set up the tent properly, the outer tent was touching the inner layer: anyone who knows anything about tents and rain knew this was a bad mix. So, in the pouring rain, I set about fixing up the pegs and separating the two layers in the (vain) hope to stop it getting worse. By the time I finished this I was drenched and my hands and feet were doing that wrinkly thing that fascinated us so much as kids.

That night upon bedtime, I saw that water was still getting in, my bags were wet and the mattress was now completely soaked in one corner. Watching the water drip from the ceiling of the tent, I knew it was going to get worse before it got better.

I sat there and decided there was nothing I could do about the tent or the mattress at 9 o’clock at night, but there was somewhere I could sleep that was warm and dry. The rest I could deal with in the morning when the rain had stopped and reception had opened. I had to wait until 9.30 am to get answers, but I was able to get a good night’s sleep, dry my mattress and buy materials to prevent any further rain damage the next morning.

Instead of playing the victim and laying limp in the rain, I decided to find solutions. This was not happening to me, it was just happening and I had to find a solution. It, like so many other things in my life, wasn’t personal. It wasn’t about me at all. It just was.

The second thing happened about 3 weeks later. I got a phone call from my boss saying that the person I was replacing was coming back because his transfer fell through and my contract was no longer available. In one phone call my plans for this year had fallen apart. No more security. No more guaranteed Europe trip. My already booked Cambodia trip was now a bit more complicated. Gone.

This happens in teaching, and happened almost two years ago at another school for different reasons. When it happened last time, I began to stress and worry about what I was going to do to pay the bills. I was also really looking forward to teaching a set load and getting to know the kids on a personal level, building relationships and watching them grow. But now, I would be back to casual teaching, where you get to know many students, but not on a personal basis. You go in, ‘babysit’ them, you leave. Sure, you are still teaching, but you don’t get that emotional connection.

That time, I instantly fell into the spiral of the victim – why was this happening to me? Why can’t I get what I want? I will say it happened again later that year when it was week 10 of term 4 and I had no work for 2017. (It was the Wednesday of this week that I got the phone call for the job I got last year – talk about 11th hour!)

This time was different. Much like the Great Tent Fiasco of 2018 (yes, it is an event worthy of an endearing title!) I remained calm, at peace. I heard the news in shocked silence and accepted it. Even better, I began to laugh. I would think of it all afternoon and break out into deep belly laughs. It wasn’t hysterical laughter, I just found it funny. Spirit had thrown yet another curve ball in my direction. There was literally nothing I could do to fix this problem, I had to wait it out.

Like the rain, it wasn’t personal – things in the other person’s life hadn’t gone to their plan and now it was affecting me. I could let it upset my happy, or I could accept it and try to find a solution. I contacted another school I knew was looking for someone, but they had filled it only 2 days prior! This just added to the hilarity of the situation.

I think there are two things that helped me to overcome my victimhood mentality. The first is finally understanding that nothing in life is personal. People don’t go around doing things to us, they do them despite us. They are going to act a certain way, whether we are there or not. This is their program at play and it often has nothing to do with us. Things don’t happen to us either, the weather isn’t out to get us, as far as I know it isn’t even conscious! It just rains when it needs to rain, despite our plans.

The second is acceptance. It has taken me a long time to learn this lesson of acceptance. Accepting things as they are and for what they are. Eventually we might be able to change them, but first we have to accept that they exist.

I first had to accept that I was playing out a victim program before I could release it and move forward. First I had to accept that I had not been given what I wanted, regardless of how powerful Spirit is, there was a reason I had been steered in another direction. I just don’t know what it is yet.

And I don’t know what this year will hold yet either. I do know that I will get heaps of casual work. I do know that I will have more time to pursue other passions. Spirit has a plan.

I just don’t know what it is yet.

Spiritual Awakening

March Energy Update: a Southern Hemisphere Perspective

It’s sometimes hard for me in the Southern Hemisphere, when I watch YouTube clips about what is going on in the world, to apply it to us Down Under. Most of the clips I see are from people in the US and they often talk about the seasons and how this affects the energy. This puts me off a bit, because we are always back the front.

It gets me wondering about the validity of the information for us down here. If they are talking about going into Spring and the excitement about the impending Summer, how does that translate to us if we are going into Autumn?

This happened in the clip I watched yesterday morning. It was Victor Oddo’s March energy update and he immediately went on about the seasonal shifts for them. I wanted to turn it off then and there, but I decided to accept what my ego was telling me and listen instead to my higher self and watch on.

Turns out he had a lot of good information and this is how it applies to me:

  1. Creating your reality: I am actually doing this more. I am choosing to see things from a different perspective, accept that I don’t know the truths people are acting from and deciding to do what makes me happy. This is creating my reality. No longer am I bound by my ego’s impressions and perceptions of the world and it feels great!
  2. Learning lessons faster: this one I have already talked about, but it doesn’t seem to be stopping any time soon. Situations are now coming up thick and fast and I am getting the lessons quicker and quicker, it’s kind of overwhelming. I do need to spend a lot of time alone to ensure they assimilate and that I don’t get too overwhelmed. I have to allow myself a ‘time out’. That part is about self-care.
  3. Learning to be more compassionate and forgiving: definitely this one. And in the public school system, it is a must! Teenagers do a lot of things on impulse and lack of understanding and it is important to forgive them and be compassionate towards them, especially if they come from a certain demographic. A lot of people forget this and judge them too harshly, myself included in the past. But more generally, I am finding I am more aware that I have no idea what is going on in the lives of other people. As an empath, I do have to be careful of how close I get, but that doesn’t stop me from showing or having compassion for that person and holding space. This is definitely something that is happening right now.
  4. Opportunity to be a masterful manifester: this one I have also blogged about before and I am sure continues to happen, there’s just not a lot that I need right now! I am totally trusting that the universe will provide what I need. Though it is a powerful reminder to let things go. I still haven’t got my flights booked for Cambodia next month. I was starting to freak out a bit and see if I could borrow some money to buy them soon as I don’t want to pay thousands for them when I can book them. This I will now leave to Spirit to guide me to – some cheap flights with a direct flight one way and a long layover in Singapore the other way, at a time where I can get out and enjoy the town!
  5. Looking after you health: this one I think links to our health and the realisation of our own inner soul and the importance of looking after the vessel it’s in. This has also been on my mind. I have been experiencing some IBS symptoms for quite some time now and I have finally got the ball rolling to see what’s actually going on in there. I need this body to be healthy so I am at optimal capacity to do my work, what I came here to do. Now more than ever, I realise the importance of looking after this meat suit so that I can have a long and happy life, and also have more time on this earth to do the work I am here to do.

So, it seems it still fits perfectly. It will be interesting to see what happens closer to winter, as we truly start to wind down and the Northerners start to ramp up for Summer.

What I do know from this is that my ego is getting quieter and my higher/true self is becoming stronger. I could have stayed in my ego, turned the clip off and not learned what I have, but my higher self spoke louder and it paid off!

If you want to hear his words for yourself and see how they relate to you, please follow the link above. I haven’t had a look at other forecasts as yet, but feel free to add any links to people you resonate with on YouTube below! I am always happy to share the knowledge!

Namaste 🕉

Spiritual Awakening

Veganism and Spiritual Awakening

I have recently celebrated my first vegan anniversary, my Veganniversary. It has and continues to be an interesting journey.

There were a few things I expected to change. I expected to shed kilos. I expected my palette to change over time. I expected to have more energy, although this last has been sporadic for reasons that will become clear shortly. I expected to experience better overall health.

Other things happened that I wasn’t expecting. The negative reactions to my choice. The amount of ‘assumptions’ I had about diet. That people continue to accept these assumptions, despite my best efforts to the contrary. The judgement both inside and outside of the vegan community.

Most of all I wasn’t expecting the spiritual side of me to gain momentum. I have been on a spiritual journey for at least 5 years, intentionally cultivating my skills and growing as a person. Not in all that time have I had such profound and fast changes inside of myself and with my skills.

These are some areas in my spiritual life that have changed in the last 12 months:

  1. Becoming more sensitive to energies and emotions: I have always been highly sensitive, an empath. I had just learned, through years of bullying and being told I’m too sensitive, to shut it down. Now, since removing animal products from my diet, it’s all flooding back to the surface. I am way more sensitive than I ever knew, which certainly brings its own challenges. Despite this, I feel that now I am filling my body with high energy foods, my channels have opened up further and I am becoming way more aware and sensitive to energies.
  2. Quicker Manifestation: Along with this comes the other amazing characteristics of a spiritually awakened life – manifestation. I am manifesting things so much quicker these days! Obviously the smaller the desire, the easier it is to come to you, but I am manifesting sometimes within hours! I am vibrating at a higher rate, which is allowing all the positive things I always wanted to come to me. They are now attracted to me, rather than being repelled.
  3. Accelerated Personal Growth: This is perhaps the negative or lesser known side of manifestation – manifesting situations that trigger your crap to be healed! When events or situations occur now though, I am getting the lessons quicker. This is allowing me to move forward at a much faster pace, which means the lessons also come quicker. My brain is not foggy anymore, so I can see my own patterns and behaviours much clearer. I have released so much this last 12 months, and as I continue to delve deeper into the onion of my inner self, I become stronger and stronger, able to deal with the really deep, traumatic stuff. This has lead to me being sick for most of the last 12 months and experiencing bouts of low motivation and fatigue. As I release the emotions, trauma or patterns there is a physiological reaction as the energy leaves, usually cold or flu like symptoms, headaches and general lethargy. Then I get a nice break for a few weeks where I am walking tall!
  4. Increased Intuition: My intuition has really kicked in, stronger than ever before. It is not being dampened by negative or lower energy foods, so it is able to get my attention more. I am still working on the habit of rationalising my nudges and learning to trust it, but I am able to hear it clearer in the first place and that’s a huge step for me.
  5. Deeper Meditations: I have been meditating for a few years now and have had some amazing experiences. None of them prepared me for what most often happens now. I don’t go anywhere or see anything much anymore, I used to go on some amazing adventures with dinosaurs and fairies and the like. Now, I mostly just sit in the energy and listen to the music. What is deeper is the change after I meditate. I immediately notice the change in my own energy, even after a short 15 minute meditation. Now that I am not clogging my body with low energy or processed foods, my meditations have a more profound effect on my energy, clearing away negativity and promoting higher increases in my vibration than ever before. I feel so much more calm and at peace after a meditation and I am totally grateful and happily surprised by this change.

I hope I have explained this last one effectively. All of these changes have lead me to a deeper connection to myself and Spirit, whether it be my guides, angels, deity or whatever the reality of Source actually is. I feel way more connected in general and I can only attribute it to the change in diet. Doreen Virtue talked years ago, in a book I can no longer remember the title to, about the negative effect of meat on your vibration, I just didn’t think it could be this amazing.

Please, if you have experienced similar or different changes, I would love to hear about them. 😁

Good luck and happy vibration raising!!

Spirituality

Practical Guide to Protecting Against Negative Energy

There is a lot of information out there on how to protect your energy from negativity, psychic attacks and the like.

What I notice is a lot of the practices require you to find a quiet place, centre yourself, take 10 deep breaths and basically go into a meditative state.

This is fine if you have plenty of spare time, but a lot of us don’t.

And they don’t always help in the moment.

Sure, you can white light bubble before you leave the house, but this only helps so far. Especially for us empaths, who always tend towards the open, helping kind of energy before we learn to shield it out. No amount of grounding, white light and crystals helped me when I would just go out and be ‘open’ anyway.

I had to learn this one very important lesson, as do many of us highly sensitive people.

Self-Awareness.

You must be aware of what is happening inside of you at any given moment. You must be present in your own mind and heart so that when negative energy does come your way, you are aware of it.

Sometimes it is so very subtle and it builds quietly in the background like a peasant revolt. They quietly gather their forces, a person here and another two there, biding their time. All of a sudden they strike, and you have no clue who you are, where you are or what day it is.

Self-awareness allows you to recognise when the peasants are massing and take action before they get too powerful.

You can see the little negative thoughts or feelings and nip them in the bud before they can flower.

The ‘how’ is the interesting part. You don’t need to sit in a quiet place or meditate, burn sage, chant mantras or cover yourself in crystals. Unless you want to, and I often do. But these things don’t help in the moment.

Here are some things you can do ‘in the moment’ to stop the cloud growing:

1. White light bubble: yep, white light bubble. But, you don’t have to sit quietly anywhere. Just see the bubble around you and quickly visualise the negativity going back out, either to the source or the universe for healing. Your bubble doesn’t have to be white either. It can be gold, pink, green, even a tinted window, you know the ones that reflect the light? They kind of look like a hematite to me, but the purpose is to reflect the energy back.

2. Call on your guides, guardian angels, etc: They are always there, waiting to be of service. You don’t need to meditate to call on them, they are that reliable friend who never lets you down or cancels or goes on holiday. All you have to do is think ‘help’ and trust they will do what needs to be done.

3. Cutting cords: cords attach between us and other people all the time. Some only for a while, but with those particularly negative or needy people, they can stay and drain you of your life force. Luckily, there is an easy method to use to get rid of them! I simply visualise a giant, magical sword swinging down in front of and behind me, affirm that all unnecessary cords and attachments are now severed and ask my inner light to heal the etheric wound. You don’t need to go anywhere quiet or alone, just visualise this sword cutting the cords mid-conversation. You’ll probably have heaps of time to do this (it only takes a second!), because most negative people are only talking at you anyway. They will welcome the chance to continue talking. And you can let them, safe in the knowledge that you are protected.

These are three techniques that I use all the time. There are plenty of others you can do once the conversation is over, but these will help you in particularly potent negative energy and stop it growing.

Spiritual Awakening

Loneliness and Spiritual Awakening

There is a lot of information out there about the loneliness phase of the spiritual awakening process. If you don’t know what these two things are and how they are connected, go to YouTube and put ‘loneliness’ and ‘spiritual awakening’ in the search and take your pick! Don’t worry, I’ll be here when you get back! 😁

So, the loneliness phase. I went through it, and pretty much all of the people who write about spiritual awakening have as well. We survived it. So will you.

For me, the hardest part was the feeling that I didn’t fit anymore. Who am I kidding? I never let like I fit! But it’s even more evident now as I look around the world and observe people.

The more I awaken to my true self, the more people in everyday situations don’t interact with me. The more I shine my light, the more people shy away.

I kind of had an inkling about why this is, but this morning it just hit me like a tonne of bricks. Ok, maybe not that hard. More like a pillow in the face. Subtle, but you know it’s there. And the feeling lingers.

People don’t interact with you when you’re whole, because they can no longer get anything from you.

This is why some friendships die off. In essence, you no longer feed into their control drama, so they avoid you. Sometimes these friendships will end in an explosion of anger and tears, other times they’ll just die off like a fire with no kindling. Either way, you end up alone.

People can not get your energy, nor give you theirs, because you are filling up from a different source, Source itself. You are no longer on the hamster wheel of energetic exchange, and people don’t know how to cope. So, they avoid you all together.

This can be lonely, but also liberating in that you are totally free to be you.

It also leaves enough time and space in your life for those people who can handle your energy. Who vibrate at the same frequency. Who will shine and grow with you, rather than try and keep you at their level.

If you’re going trough this, just know it won’t last forever. My advice is to learn to be your own best friend. This way you are never alone.

I also hope that this revelation helps you to understand what is happening on a deeper level. You might be totally aware of what is going on with you, but understanding people’s changing reactions can help soften the blow.

We just need to keep reminding ourselves to have compassion – for them and for ourselves. We are going through a major change and need to go easy on ourselves. The people around us are often still asleep, and they need our compassion, for they know not what they do, or why.

Just don’t get back on the hamster wheel. You’ve come too far to turn back now!